Why I'm A Backwards Feminist

I've always believed that a man is no better than a women; this is something that i believe to the core of me. i thought it was really rad, of the feminist of the past to burn their bras and basically cause hell. During that time, they had to be extreme because , how else would they be heard? Close mouths don't get fed, so they had to literally cause riots. To think of how hard it must have been, is so sad. But now things are all different, i feel like being a feminist is sexy and empowering. If you ask the average men or women who isn't informed their opinion of a feminist i guarantee it will be one of two things; they are lesbians, and are angry because they cant get a man. Excuse me, but when did wanting equal pay and fair rights make you and angry butch lesbian who, cant get a man if she tried. I'm not on a rant, this has a purpose. I 'm in intro to woman's studies, and each week i feel like the biggest hypocrite. I can't just call myself a feminist, although i would like too!!!. To me being a feminist is sexy, empowering and uber fierce.

I feel like that hoe , who shakes her ass in the club ; but she sings in the choir on Sunday and is all holy rolly. I go out with my friends and dance to some of the most raunchiest shit ( shake that monkey, like dat, some cut) Now i like the beat,and i love rap, but what does that say about me? Do women like to be objectified by rap songs; we automatically say " oh he aint talking about me, so its ok". How do we know that is true; i cant and wont stop listening to my dirty rap, it's like water, i gotta have it. I feel like a hypocrite if i was to say, yes I'm a feminist. At least I'm being honest, i would rather catch flack for that, than being a liar, who secretly loves to shake her ass to a good nasty rap song.
One of the most important things that i have learned so far, in my woman's studies class is that; over a lifetime a man will make at least 100,000 more than a women just because he is a man. That shit, is really depressing, just because he has dick and i have a vagina , he makes more than me. The logic is so wrong, most of the single parents are women. Therefore , we need to make more; let's be honest child support aint shit and some don't pay it, the women should make at least equal salary to take care of her child. The whole mindset, that a man is just better has some religious connotations. In the bible it says, the men is the head of the household and a women should submit to her husband. This way of thinking is so wrong and outdated; if this is how marriage is, then it's something that' not for me.
For the average women in America; we are judged and in some way objectified everyday, whether we realize it or not; Just watch, when you get the occasionally glance of yer breast or ass by some guy; or how you are put down by doing something that is deemed a man's job. All i can say is , I'm a backwards feminist and I'm proud. I stand up for what is wrong, and i wont let a guy dictate to me. My make up is 70% feminist, 30% dirty slut party girl.
Until Next Time
XOXOXO Rawwr